There are two voices
All of us have two voices inside - one is our ego and the other is our soul. Being an artist involves really tuning into the soul’s voice. It doesn’t speak from our mind, but rather from somewhere further down. Mine is in my gut - I think.
Some people go through life without listening to their soul. They tune it out so proficiently that eventually they can’t even hear it anymore. We all know them. They are the old bitter folk, complaining about this, whinging about that, nothing can please them. Then there are the others. Those that have led a life guided by their soul. Choosing paths that fulfilled their soul journey and as a result they are at peace. They are calm, they don’t yell at traffic, they don’t claim the world has done wrong by them. They have complete ownership of their life and feel the empowerment of doing so.
I have followed the voice of the ego in part for most of my adult life. It keeps us safe yeah? Go to uni, get a good job, we all know the drill. But what about the magic? What about the soul?
After going through a trauma last year and having to reset my entire life - again… I arrived at what I see as my cross roads. A choice where I could give up on my souls voice, work full time in my ‘day job’ to earn more money and in doing so let go of the way I wished to raise my son, and paint only if time and life allowed. OR, I put trust in my souls guidance. The purpose of my life is my son and my art. It always has been, it always will be. Safe salary, a house, the way we are ‘supposed to do life’ - in the end does it really fulfil us? The way I answer this question is to imagine myself old and nearing the end. If I looked back on my life would I feel fulfilled (in my soul) if I worked in health care full time and owned a pretty home? No. I would feel like I missed my life’s purpose. Like I played it safe and in doing so missed all the magical opportunities and moments that make life truly rich and beautiful. I don’t want to miss anything, we have one life and intentionally living it in the way you feel guided to do so, is so so important. And to be clear let’s shed the belief that choosing art means choosing a life without money. That is not true, it is a limiting belief sooooo many of us carry, myself included, and yet really, it isn’t true. The way I see it, a salary job has a roof on potential, an entrepreneurial life, means to live without limits. The possibilities are endless.
It has taken practice to hear my souls voice clearly. I’ve been slowly chipping away at opening my ability to hear my intuition for years. Now it is so strong it is not just a whisper but a yearning in my chest that almost wouldn't let me turn back if I tried. Or for certain if I tried, bitterness would settle in like a cold winter and I would surely become the grumpy old lady.
So, at the great worry and fear of my family, I have taken 6 months leave without pay from my day job. To throw myself in to life. Tie up loose ends from last years trauma, return to myself, my true self, after years of my self confidence being stripped away. I will commit to following my intuition wholeheartedly for the 6 months. Where it will lead, of course I don’t know. But that doesn’t matter. I trust I am on the path for me.
So join me for the next 6 months on what I am calling my ‘creative pilgrimage’. A journey led by the soul. Gosh even do it with me if you can! Even if it’s only one day a week, begin how I have done for the last few years, and learn to listen to the other voice inside of you - the one that whispers.
Talk soon,
Sarah x